OK.  I said I was tortured and in a black hole and crippled, many times, on lost.com.  My emotions were way out of whack, but NEVER my integrity or honesty or common human decency.   Here are a couple examples...
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=204547&highlight=Absolutely+exaggeration#post204547
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=242631&highlight=kids#post242631

Anyway, I posted a thread on Jung's archetyes on lost.com...

http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?t=9930&highlight=jung

This is what the Nagaul posted on that thread...

"Great elaboration of symbols used on LOST, you are one of the few here that has actual insight behind the show's script even though you are not one of the writers."

After lost.com banned me, I posted for several months on Lostpedia without any incident with any moderator.  Around Christmas, I typed lost.com into my browser.  Previsouly the site would not even come up, but this time it did, due I guess to them changing their forum engine.  I was placed by the system in my user control panel, and my presence on the site showed up at the bottom and several people dropped in to say hi.   People had not been told I was banned or why I was banned.  I told them I was posting at Lostpedia and I had a new AJIRA theory, and I provided a link.

Lissa Marie, the moderator at lost.com followed the link and then went on lostpedia forum to say I was banned for saying weird things about children.

http://forum.lostpedia.com/locke-locke-mirror-universe-theory-t42475p7.html

NAM, I am sorry to be so blunt but there is not one person on Lostcom that thinks you were even remotely "right" in any way, shape or form about anything, especially Lost. Most of us were entertained for a short time by your cocky/wacky antics and "the goddess is cooking/angry" caca but your behavior and inappropriate comments about children led you to be banned from our forum. My apologies to you folks here at Lostpedia. Troll is an understatement!

Later in the thread, I said this:

Post#77 
It was only a joke, the lostcom forum has a very thorough research team, and there's no way I could have done it without their research.  But I'm spiritual, and no one else on that forum is, except "The Nagaul" was, and he is a fabulous artist, one of the best I've ever seen.  Here's his website. http://www.danielpeci.com/ 

He said I was the only one that seemed to have a clue about the show, or something like that.

THEN, when finally the subject of me being banned came to light on lost.com, LissaMarie said this to the Nagaul:

Yeah, you'll be happy to know that he was using you in his own defense on LP before he was banned over there. He was telling tales of how you said he was brilliant, etc. It was fascinating!
 http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?t=12502&highlight=losttv&page=5

Reagarding "inappropriate" or "weird" comments about children and the SLANDEROUS insinuation that I was a WEIRDO dangerous to children...

Here are the threads where I posted about children on lost.com...
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=241185&highlight=adults#post241185
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=241185&highlight=adults#post241185
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=247439&highlight=adults#post247439
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=258759&highlight=adults#post258759
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=211398&highlight=adults#post211398
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=260844&highlight=adults#post260844
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=249015&highlight=kids#post249015
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=248362&highlight=kids#post248362
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=240653&highlight=kids#post240653
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=231393&highlight=kids#post231393

Notsolost was also a "moderator" and slanderous and defamatory.

When I said I was in a torturous blackhole, this is what she said (at the time she was a not a moderator).

"Yes, perhaps we do agree on one point. You are some kind of a hole."

Then she said this, when another poster challenged her cruel insulting tone which was COMMON:

"The person quite plainly expressed the fact that they were a black hole. I simply agreed that they were indeed some type of hole. If you are adding any further thoughts to my statement, that is not my issue but rather yours. What's your problem with that, I agreed?" 

This is an example of ZERO integrity and there is ZERO integrity in any of the slanderous lying garbage that is being spewed about me.  It happened on this thread, which was referenced earlier...
http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?t=8661
 
Now, regards the timing of the ban, the last post, the last straw, here it is.

http://lost.com/forum/showthread.php?p=262859&highlight=lowered+level#post262859
Someone said this to me after attacking me personally...

Yes, could not agree more. I am sorry I lowered myself to such a level.

The moderators, clique and such had hijacked my thread and turned it into a chit chat about music, food and what not (not that I care), as soon as someone said I was right, I was banned. 

Once I was banned, no one was informed I was banned and no one was told why, certainly not me.  Once they found out I was on Lostpedia, they went to Lostpedia and got me banned there...
 
FINE, they didn't want me on their site.  I was admittedly unstable and in a great deal of agony and suffering.  I hid nothing, there were no rules on the site about what could and could not be discussed, and so I discussed my life and such.  And, as usual, no one cared.

When I brought up politics, my views were opposite of notsolost, and she saw that as very threatening or "bad" whatever.  I said in an op ed to my local newspaper that was published, that the present administration was a farce, which it has well proven to be.